Learning About...Myself?

Last week in the girl’s small group, we did the “color code” personality quiz. 5 out of us 7 girls were primarily the “blue” personality type, with different secondary “colors.” (mine is white). The other 2 girls have blue as their secondary color.
Apparently "blue" is the personality type who want to work with Children At Risk - loyal, compassionate, orderly, over-achiever, and…emotional.

But I consider myself to be emotionally stable, not enthusiastic or expressive, and actually kind of boring. Granted the 4 personality types are the extremes, so the book's example of an extreme “blue” is the girl who freaks out and says, “I hate this, I hate Jason, I hate life, I don’t want to be here.” So now, when any of us girls are stressed out, overwhelmed, angry, etc, we blame Jason.

In the past week, I’ve realized that I am more emotional than I had thought. The other day, when the internet didn’t work at the place where we are staying, we went down the road to “Timmy’s Restaurant” bought juice or soda and used the free internet. As I walked home my thoughts were, “I am mad about the price of plane tickets, stressed out about not knowing what I’m doing after this, depressed about how bad the world is and how hopeless it seems, mad that I don’t know what to do about it, or even what to ask the Father, overwhelmed by the never-ending homework and inability to focus, and tired of cold showers. But glad I got dreads so I don't need to wash my hair.”

That’s when I realized "wow, I am emotional." Maybe not as emotional as most girls, because I suppress it until the bajillions of little things add up, so maybe I should let it out. So I turned to my friend Amanda, and said, “I hate Jason.” Then we told the maintance guy that the girl’s showers were cold, so he fixed it.

I'm not really sure how I managed to make it this far in life thinking I’m not emotional, when I stop and consider how often I cry, or how I get overwhelmed by all I need to do, panic, and then an hour later realize I’m done with all that, and now I have nothing to do.

That might not be emotional as much as an inability to multitask. But I had thought I was good at that too. I just have a limit of about 3 major tasks/projects at 1 time.

One of the reasons I like modular learning is because there is 1 topic at a time and all the homework is related. We finish that topic and the next week have a new one. As opposed to college where every hour you switch topics, and then spend free time trying to figure out which homework to do first. I do much better focusing on one thing at a time, crossing it off the list and then moving on to the next thing.

Anyway, there's some insight into me...and I really like personality tests, because it helps me understand myself and others, and how to better relate with them...and wow, you mean not everybody thinks like me?